Code Blue

Talk about the BLUEs… I am still seeing red!! I‘m so disappointed in this guy, I never want to see or hear from him again! If you knew how our relationship actually was… you would find the laughable irony in that statement that I do!!  You would also know I miss him more than words […]

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My Grief…

My grief comes in unforgiving waves timed in a way that can’t be predicted, Each one crashes around me with deliberate force unruly, and unrestricted~ I am drowning in a sorrow so profound… There’s just no way to express it out loud~  

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Grieving the Treacherous

This is from the archives. It’s referring to a family situation that has now past. Not everything I have faced in the last few years, is a result of my Initiation or my interaction with other Initiates.   I have been grieving for well over a year. Half of which ran tandem with an illness […]

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It is finished~

No more hanging black crepe. No more mourning my decision. No more sobbing like a school girl. The time for grief, has come to a close.   I know in the deepest place within me, what I did was the right thing to do. Even though I did not want to do it. That is […]

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Resigned to Unity

I fell on my sword, believing I have failed IAM.  But make no mistake Beloved Beacons, I did not renounce my loyalty, I only resigned from their public outreach. I understand better than most, this movement is about uniting our species, not engaging in leadership pissing contests. Or so I thought.  I have unwittingly caused […]

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Kicking and Screaming~

I’ve been really sick. I was really sick & tired for about 6 months.   When I quit smoking, it sent me straight to Hell and into Hypothyroidism that went unchecked for 3 months. As a result, I gained 5 pounds a week for 8 weeks in a row, pouring a swift and staggering 40lbs […]

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The REAL cost of following the Illuminati… UPDATE

I am transmitting from HELL!! I am completely miserable and overwhelmed. It is very difficult for me to see the Light right now, it is so fucking dim!! However, the black crepe comes down tomorrow, regardless. I know from experience, I will find my way out of this long dark tunnel, somehow. It surely leads […]

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Part 2: The REAL cost of following IAM

*For those of you not feeling the flames of refinement, I’m convinced it’s likely because you are not being groomed for greatness, yet. If your life is not being turned upside down, you may not be the leader you believe yourself to be. Greatness is forged out of adversity, not abundance. I am sharing this […]

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I have kept it all in, as long as I could. I harbored the burden alone. But the weight of all has kept me, from wearing a crown of my own. I’m spilling my pain all over these pages. So much in my life, has taken a toll. I’m an endless well of pent up […]

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